Insecure Sexual Truth

I'd like to say I'm untouched, but that would be a lie

Hard to say that I've laid with more than 11 guys

Not a whore, but I've done things that whores are known to do

Only difference is I didn't know what else to do

See I'm a woman of emotion I act on feelings all the time

Instead of sitting home crying I got penetrated by guys 

Please don't get me wrong I've never slept with someone I didn't know

Every guy that's hit it, I've hung out with at least once before

After some I regretted being that if I wasn't sad it wouldn't have happened

Instead of feeling sadness I get drunk and that's how things happen

Now my number is less than twenty, but it's higher than what I want it to be

The majority of them happened after Clark broke me

Yes I admit I was broken it was a time when I was truly weak

I did whatever to forget him cause the pain was slowly killing me

I wanted anything without emotion, something that would let my feelings flee

I hid within the bedroom, but as always feelings must be free

So when my lovers left in the sun of a brand new day

I lied in bed crying until my tears all dried away

I'm sharing this to say that sometimes the girl you see is fake

Everyone saw me smiling while my body was an empty space

Now that I know better and have more love and respect for myself

My body is a vessel that is filled with pain and love

So those of you who are hurting please learn from my mistakes

Meaningless still has meaning and sex doesn't make the feelings fade